A MESSAGE SNIPPET FROM A EMIL EXCHANGE WITH LUDDITE:
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0216 is what time I wrote it. (Meaning the message,)
No, I just haven’t slept through the night in many years. The new doc is not happy with that and the sweats and other “symptoms”. So I am keeping a log for him.
I attribute the problems sleeping to the last six years of “training”. You might remember that EVY would say I would sleep through an atomic attack. As she got sicker, I “taught”my self to be a light sleeper and wake up often.
Like putting the cellphone on vibrate and have it alarm every thirty minutes. Slept with it rubber banded to my hand. That was so I could check her for low sugar during the night.
Rofl! How dumb was that?
Now I can’t sleep without a light on. When she would be in hospital (working with Brit and for a Brit i the past has rubbed off a little. Bloody hell!)
Any way, about the light on, when she was in the hospital, I began to sleep with the light on to remind me that she wasn’t there. This after a couple off times in a panic when she was NOT there and didn’t answer when I called her. Followed by a furious race around the house to “find” her. Quite funny really. Why would someone look in a cupboard? Or, another time, in my skivvies, checking the cars. Lucky I didn’t get arrested as a pervert. Anyway, you KNOW how crazed I was in those days. So, I started that habit and continue it to this days.
Like every room has to have a night light after the time she tripped over her blanket going to the bathroom.
Looks like Christmas lights around the house. Good thing they have sensors.
I have several techniques to get back to sleep as outlined in various self help books.
One is called “clearing”. The theory is that in trying to go back to sleep, you clear by writing any thinking that’s on your mind at that time. Some of my short stories are the result of that. If you’re “trying” to sleep, you might be afraid you’ll forget and the Universe keeps you awake so you don’t
And you’ve read my book and my blog so you know more about my paradigms and memes than I do about yours. Lol! Probably more than you want to know about a very very strange fellow!!!
Most times when I’m upset about something if I actually gather data, I find my perception (paradigm) is flawed. In size, amount, impact, or other measures.
Statistic is an interesting discipline because usual human paradigms and memes are just plain wrong!
PS, look for this as a blog post!
On Monday, May 14, 2012, LUDDITE wrote:
What’s this 0216 crap? Did I cause you to lose sleep? I know you said you have trouble…maybe when I get up there I will have to bring some sleep tips.
Sent: Monday, May 14, 2012 2:16 AM
Subject: @0200 peridot — two am thinking about your work issues and “load”