“You don’t try to forget the mistakes, but you don’t dwell on it. Don’t let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space.” – Johnny Cash
Today is the anniversary of the worst day in my life. While she and I always lived with the expectation it would happen, it still was metaphorical punch in the gut when it happened.
I wrote about it in my book long before it did happen.
“You can’t be afraid. It’s not right to be afraid. It’s as if you don’t trust the Lord with our lives. I’m not a big Bible Banger, but it seems rude to joggle God’s elbow. Like a little kid, who has no concept of what is happening.” — character “John” in CHURCH 10●19●62 Volume 2 Page 206
“My love, were it in my power, I would sadly grant thee this boon. But, we have to continue to follow His Plan for us. Let’s go forth and speak no more of this. Who ever is last will be last. It will be His choice; not ours. We’re but humble custodians of His temple on earth. It’s not our place to trump His plan. Whatever that plan be, know that I will be with you to my last breath.” — character “John” in CHURCH 10●19●62 Volume 2 Page 399
And each year I reflect on the thing I might have done to delay or prevent it.
“You don’t try to forget the mistakes, but you don’t dwell on it. Don’t let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space.” – Johnny Cash
I have a theory that, unless you care crazy, you always make the best decisions among the available options at the time. Hence there are no “mistakes”. There are only choices that worked out well and those that worked out badly. Like in sports, doing the high percentage play doesn’t guarantee in the short run; maybe not even in the long run either.
Unfortunately, we live in the Fourth Dimension of Time. And, there’s no do overs to test other outcomes.
“… checked the Eternal Possibilities Machine, which generates all the possibilities for use in creating the alternative worlds. In all those probability lines …” CHURCH 10●19●62 (Vol 1) 978-0-557-08387-9 page 45
Wish I had that Eternal Possibilities Machine to go back and look at all the other paths possible and their results.
But, unfortunately, no such device exists. (Yet?)
So we just have to trudge along. “Let’s go forth and speak no more of this.”
So today ends my reflection. I’ll put the mental folder away for next year and put one foot in front of the other on my way to whatever life has in store for me next.
Sigh!
YMMV
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